It was a year ago yesterday that we shared this video to finally reveal the exciting news that we were expecting our greatest treasure, Jude. From the beginning this journey started out a bit scarier than I expected. We have been on an emotional roller coaster since the very first ultrasound we had with Jude and found out he wasn’t growing properly. Pregnancy for me was one of the most incredible experiences but it was also one of the most scary.
I remember when I first started feeling Jude move. It was the most amazing feeling! I also remember being in fear because I was scared that once the nine months ended, I wouldn’t be able to feel Jude move and feel his life anymore. I was scared I wouldn’t get to keep him.
This journey with Jude has been terrifying! It has tested me in many ways. At times I have felt emotionally, physically and spiritually drained. Its not always easy to stay brave. Its not always easy to stay strong for him.
But somehow, he stays strong for the both of us.
Through the fear and through the pain, he remains calm and never loses his pure joy.
I am so very grateful that The Lord has given me this beautiful treasure to take care of. Although its scary and very hard to go through all these storms with him, it has been far worth it. I will continue to fight with him and hold his hand through it all.
Tomorrow Jude has his 4th surgery. Yes, I am nervous and I wish so badly I could go in his place. But he is so strong and brave and I know he will be just fine.
I love you my sweet warrior boy! Forever and always.